This is the second in a collection seemingly mundane events that proved that, for a time, life was deliciously normal. Nothing earth-shattering. Nothing out of the ordinary. Just life. Normal life. You can read the first entry here.
March 12
A year ago today I hit No. 2 on speed dial as I walked toward my van after school.
It was 4 o'clock. The bus had dropped off Addie 15 minutes earlier and I liked to think she was waiting for my call. She probably wasn't. Too busy catching up on one of the shows she'd DVR'd or fiddling with the iPad.
"Hello?" she said.
"Hey, Ad. How was your day?"
"Fine."
This is where I envision her pressing pause on the remote and humoring me with the same conversation we'd have each and every day.
"What was your favorite part?"
"Ummm," she'd pause, taking a lick of the cream filling inside her Golden Oreo. "Probably math."
"Yeah, what did you do?"
"We played this review game."
Like clockwork, I'd find myself rounding the first curve south of Eagle and I knew our conversation would soon come to an end.
"OK, Ad. I'll be home in about 15 minutes. Love you."
"Love you too."
And that was pretty much it.
Five minutes of the exact same conversation day-in and day-out.
Five minutes of nothing.
And everything.
I don't. Know your family but I pray everyday for you. I am very sad for your loss. May God continue to give you daily strength.
ReplyDeleteI found your blog through The Daily Tay's post today about Addison. I've sat at my desk and read your story with tears in my eyes and my heart aching. While losing Addison breaks my heart for your family, you can tell her life was full and yours was better by her being a part of it. Prayers for you and your family as you all continue to heal. And if there is any peace at all, it is knowing you will be together again one day. God bless.
ReplyDeleteA new follower and friend,
Melanie
Just found you through the daily Tay and was very touched by your post. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Newest follower
ReplyDeleteJust found your blog through the Daily Tay and my heart goes out to you. Thinking of you and your family as the first year without Addie passes. May you have the strength and serenity during this time.
ReplyDeleteAlso found your blog through Daily Tay and have been thinking of your family and sweet Addie. Praying for you...especially during the next few days...as you journey on. God is good and He will be your strength to make it through.
ReplyDeletePenny
I also found your blog through the Daily Tay and am thinking and praying for your family. When I was 10, my best friend died of cancer so I know there is nothing I can say that will take away your hurt. but just know that there are people out there who are rooting for you, who are thinking of Addie and living a little bit better life because they heard her story.
ReplyDeletea good friend of mind told me this quote and it always sticks with me "We will never be the same as we were before this loss, but are ever so much better for having something so great to lose."
praying for you.
I stopped by the high school the other day to visit and heard about what had happened. My deepest condolences. I will keep your family in my prays!
ReplyDelete~Courtney Fruhling
Oh my. This just breaks my heart. I too am stopping by from Daily Tay and am in tears as I read and watch my sweet 1.5 year old sleep. Stay strong, momma! I'll be praying for you.
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