Asked & Answered

Why?

Why Addie?

Why our family?

Why me?

These are the questions a mother - with a heart  broken and a spirit bruised - asks her God.

In the morning. At night. On a run out in the country. In the car on the way home from work. 

Questions.

And there were more.

Why a baby? Why now?

It just didn't make any sense.

Until.

Now.

As I looked into little Landry Olivia's beautiful blue eyes, I realized this 7 pound, 14 ounce being was sent to save me.

Without her, without this pregnancy, I don't know where I'd be. I don't even know if I'd be at all.

Grief took me to some dark, dark places and some days left me devastated and down-right despondent.

I'd be kidding myself if I thought I wouldn't see those days again.

But for now I can lose myself in the sweet sounds and smells of this little baby who is completely and totally dependent on me.

And hope that maybe, just maybe, big sister Addie and little sister Landry met somewhere between here and the here-after. Maybe.

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Here are a few pictures from the hospital...

Just a few minutes old.

Mom, dad, and Landry.

Brothers checking her out.

Sweetheart. 

Addie's favorite stuffed animal Moosey keeps
Landry company.

And here are a few photos from home...